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Don’t look (I’m fine without you)

Hi.

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photo by @drakouantigoni (IG)

Can you see me? Looking at you like my life depends on you. It did and sometimes still does. I can’t help it. I still love you. Sometimes. But hate you. Most times. Hate is such a strong word and I’m a Christian so I shouldn’t hate. I like you not. That’s better.

Don’t look. And I’ll be fine.

I’m healing.

Don’t look at all my flaws, all my scars, all my stars.

If I shine, don’t look.

If I cry, don’t look.

If I whine, don’t look.

If I try, don’t look.

Don’t look and we’ll be fine.

1. 2. 3.

Don’t look.

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Photo by @drakouantigoni

But can you see me now? Looking at you like why? Why did I depend on you? What was it you did? Why did I still cling? To what was gone. What was never mine. I should never have looked. Although, I hate you not, I still don’t love you.

I know now you want to look.

But please, still. don’t look.

Close your eyes.

I’m fine. without you.

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